You are a beautiful person!
Embrace your uniqueness and soar!
You are a beautiful person!
Embrace your uniqueness and soar!
I woke this morning refreshed and energized, even excited! My body is tired but my mind renewed and for that, I am very thankful. You see, over the past four days my world has turned upside down so to speak. On Friday, the nursing home where my mother stays had to have her transported to the Emergency Room. There, after testing, they discovered two large blood clots, one on each lung. After consulting with the doctor he told us that she would probably be gone before morning. She’d refused medicine and even the oxygen that was vital for her living.
We all need our momma!
Wow! What a shock! I’d contacted our son who lives 700 miles away. The doctor told us he didn’t believe our son could get to the hospital in time before my mother passed. Goodness! So my husband and I prepare for the finality of her home-going as best we can. We stayed at the hospital until late in the night when she grew agitated so we left thinking maybe we were causing her to not rest.
The next morning I hadn’t received a call that she’d passed so we were kinda shocked and even more so when we got to the unit where she was only to see her standing at the nurses’ station talking with them. Oh, my goodness! This woman sure is tough!
After a consult with the doctor, who was as shocked as we were of her continuing to live given the conditions of her lungs, we decided the best route to take would be to have Hospice give her comfort care for her last days. So later in the day, they transported her back to the nursing home.
We and the doctor asked her repeatedly if she’d like the medicine that would prolong her life. Her response was, “No, I want to go home!” Well, I’m thinking to the home she grew up in. So I ask her, “Mom, what home?”
She responds, “I wanta go to Heaven to see Jesus and Tommy! (My stepdad.)
As my husband and I have daily visited her we have been very shocked at her mood. She laughs, she jokes and we enjoy being with her. At our last visit, she was tracking well and in a good mood. Some things were mentioned about the past where there’d been some deep heart woundings for both my husband and me. She looked at my husband and said, “I’m so sorry! Will you ever forgive me?” Wow…and yes he has and told her so.
Then the conversation shifted to some rough years I’d had to endure at her manipulating after my husband I were separated long years ago. (We are now remarried. He is my precious soulmate!) She looked at me and said, “And that was my fault and I’m so sorry you were hurt!” Again, wow!!!
And we’ve talked about the books I’m writing. She asked me to remind her of my first one. I told her it was about the child abuse I’d experienced. “And the second”, she asked.
“It’s about the domestic violence I experienced”, I replied.
She paused a few minutes then looked up at me and said, “Your books will help a lot of people!” Wow…just wow!
My point in all of this is never give up! Pray for God’s redemption and restoration. My mother is dying. It could be today or a few months from now but she is indeed dying. I know God has blessed us with a very special gift. I believe I am seeing what my mother woulda been like had she not gone through her own horrific abuse! She made bad choices, we all have; however, she did not gain the healing needed to overcome brokenness from the past.
We all need freedom and forgiveness!
I encourage you, forgive those who have hurt you! Please don’t waste precious time! None of us are guaranteed of tomorrow. You may not be able to have a healed relationship with them because they may still be too toxic but you can walk in the sweet benefits of forgiving! Forgiveness is for you so you may live your life in victory and freedom and sweet healing!
I would love to hear your story of how you have been able to forgive!
For me….I had to….
1. Ask God to give me the want to, to even begin to forgive!
It wasn’t easy and took lots of practice! I knew Jesus had forgiven me and it was necessary for me to do the same to others who’d hurt me.
2. I had to remember I am not ruled or lead by my emotions but His truth.
There were many days on top of many days when I did not ‘feel’ like forgiving her or anyone who’s abused me. That doesn’t make it so. I had to remember, sometimes even as I was screaming and kicking my way through the mess, that His truth would set me free!
3. I needed to accept I was worth forgiving!
So many times those of us who have been hurt through abuse often feel unworthy. We struggle with whether or not anyone could ever really love us because we feel so dirty. Those are lies from the devil! He wants us to stay in bondage so he can lead us down a very dark, destructive path. He is a lier!!
In accepting I am worth forgiving it is often easier to then forgive others as well as self!
Jesus paid a very high price for my freedom: With His very life!
I am learning that I am indeed worth loving and forgiving myself because my Jesus says so! And so are you!
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When memories…when reality…comes flooding back reminding you of how your life once used to be it can seemingly knock the very breath right out of you!
These are all part of an individual’s life plan. They are part of an essential plan to enable us to navigate through the smooth as well as the rapids of life.
The Word tells us in Habakah 2:2, ‘Write the vision down’!
Personally I like making my to-do list, writing out my goals for it helps me stay on track. I’m the kinda person who can quickly become distracted with this thought or that interest but when I have my list to help keep me on track I’m so much more productive.
1. Write out my goal
I’ll write out what I believe the final goal may look like. (One can never truly know exactly how it’ll end up cause we aren’t all knowing.)
2. Write out bite size steps to achieve my goal
How do you eat an elephant?
Well certainly not whole!
Writing out manageable steps helps me to reach my goal more successfully!
3. Celebrate when goal is achieved
It’s so important to reward yourself when a goal is reached….even when small goals are met. We all need encouragement!
4. Don’t bite off more than you can chew
This is vitally important! And one I must often remind myself of. Don’t take on more than you know you can do and do well!
It’s really early morning…I doubt even the chickens are up yet. Woke up so got up and decided to be productive. For several months now I have been bout as tired when I woke up as when I went to bed. Not good!
I discovered something this week when I went in for a checkup. I more than likely am dealing with sleep apnea. I wake myself up snoring a lot, even wake my precious husband but he is ever so gracious and doesn’t tease me about it! So I’ll be going to a sleep specialist to determine the best method of care. I do not want to have to wear a face mask but I do also want to enjoy a full night’s rest and sleep. I can’t imagine what that would feel like.
How many of us know what we should do but for one reason or the other we opt to not do so?
We wait. And wait. And wait. Hoping things will get better on their own than when it gets serious we decided, well, maybe we should go to the doctor or mechanic or dentist! By then it may end up costing us a small fortune to have the situation fixed or be too late. When if we’d have gone to the doctor or mechanic or dentist in the first place, in the beginning, the problem would be over with and our bank account wouldn’t be depleted.
Why do we wait?
I dare say the same can be said of our mental health. Sadly, in our society, there is such a negative stigma on mental health that we are seemingly afraid to discuss this very important issue almost as if it’s some sort of catchin’ disease. Hogwash!
It’s like no one wants to acknowledge the elephant in the room. If we had cancer or chronic pain or a broken bone, I’ve no doubt there would be those who would want to help, bring food, encourage us and more. Not so with a mental issue.
Every one of us deals with mental issues because we live in a sin-filled world and there’s just junk that is always going on around us. That’s the way God created us for we are a triune being: spirit, soul and body! Our soul, which is our mind, will and emotions, is where we deal with those issues. And our Heavenly Poppa longs to see us blessed abundantly, John 10:10 in all areas! He desires for us to live happy and stress-free. 3 John 1:2 tells us that God would have us to be in good health even as our soul prospers. For that to happen, we must examine mental health and all it entails!
The elephant in the room needs to be addressed.
I’ve dealt with some form or issue all my life. For most of my life, I’ve felt ashamed because I’ve dealt with a mental issue. How defeating is that? If I had a broken leg I’d be all over making sure I took good care of myself. Why then do we as a society seem to cast others aside when we suspect they have something wrong in the head? How wrong is that?! And how so very sad!
(I used Ky statistics because that’s where I live.) According to the 2018 the annual report at Americas Health Rankings (www.americashealthrankings.org) in Kentucky, poor mental health days are more common in women (4.3 days) compared with men (3.1 days). And younger adults aged 18-44 had (4.2 days) poor mental health days. Yes, I’d say it’s needful to acknowledge the elephant in the room.
I challenge you to begin addressing your own mental health.
What are you doing to improve your mental health?
Here are some suggestions:
1. Begin today doing something fun just for you.
I am learning to sketch. This is for my personal enjoyment.
You can begin today taking a 10 minute stroll around your neighborhood. I love gettin out in the woods by our home.
Form a new hobby…something you enjoy!
2. Learn to be present
That means no more zoning out when things or emotions get tough. Ya gotta feel it before you can heal it! That’s a sucky saying but it packs a wallop of truth too! Learning to be present in pain and good times means more healing and loads of growth! I have discovered journaling helps me to process during these times.
3. Be kind to yourself
Oh goodness..this one has been hard for me. I grew up hearing all the negative garbage bout how I’d never amount to anything…bout how lazy and useless I was…how they wished I’d never of been born…of how I was only born to give men and women sexual pleasure and so much more horrid junk.
Now, though, now I know those were a pack of lies!
I am learning to rock my life! I am learning how to step into the calling God has placed on my life! I am learning to love myself…if I can’t love me then I most assuredly can’t love my neighbor which is a commandment! Mark 12:31 “The second is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.”
Today I encourage you to begin your own mental health renewal! Why? It’s simple! Because you are so worth it.
I’d love to hear what you’re doing for you today! Drop me a line!
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Together we can make a difference with our mental health!
Have a blessed day!
Today is Fathers Day and many are celebrating with great memories of kind and loving fathers.
And that is awesome!
However, not all of us have those sweet memories to fall back on nor a healthy relationship with our father.
Sadly there are those of us who have memories of a mean, uncaring father. Experiences of an abusive father who believed it was his job to teach his child about sex. Memories of ugly words being flung at our tender young soul that still haunt and defile us….from our father.
I applaud all those who have sweet memories of their father. Personally I have no clue what a healthy father-daughter relationship would even look like!
I’m so very thankful I’ve finally reached a point of realizing how very much God longs to be my father and even my mother! He’s a good, good father!
I’m so grateful God has been so patient with me as I’m learning more and more to trust Him! He’s a kind and loving Father!
Today I also pray for those fathers who’s adult children have made the choice to not be in their fathers lives. I know how deeply it hurts fathers!
I pray for my father and continue to lift him up to the Father. I pray my father seeks forgiveness before it’s too late!
I have forgiven my dad. It certainly wasn’t easy but very necessary! And honestly there are still those days my emotions rise up causing me to wanta squish him like a wad of paper.
But I let go and trust God for His healing!
This year instead of focusing on what I never had and focusing on the devastating loss, I am choosing to focus on the positive.
There are many men in my life who demonstrate what it is like to be a healthy father including my own husband! I am choosing to see the positive.
I’m also continuing to explore this new relationship with my Abba God as my father! He will never leave me nor forsake me! And He loves me greatly cuz I’m His favorite! lol
She knew she was playing with fire but she so desperately wanted to step over the edge, over to the other side. Surely there it’d be quieter. Surely there it’d be less colorful, less noisy. Surely there it’d be less demanding. Surely, right?!
Emotions, dark and churning, swirled deep within her being. She longed to bring them out in the open to examine them but figured most folks would chastise her for doing so, for even wanting to do so. She brushed her long wavy sun-kissed hair behind her ear so she could have a clear view of what was before her.
It seemed to her that there were huge boulders placed before her path to be used as stepping stones but oh, could she really step from one to the next without falling. Falling down in the deep, dark abyss. She did not think so. Frozen! She felt frozen in place with the fear of making a decision to take the next step.
But nobody seemed to listen or for that even cared! They pushed her forward, harder. Make a decision they screamed loud and long in her ear! Hurry up! Do this! No, do that!
No one seemed to hear her when she told them she couldn’t take anymore! When she told them how very tired she was of trying so hard to hold all their words inside her being, of trying so hard to do all she could to keep everybody happy. She was so very tired!
The rawness she felt had silently made its way to the top of her soul where it was now running over like the hot tears that rolled down her cheeks and dripped off her chin. But there was no one to wipe them away. No one to catch her tears. No one.
Rawness is so scary for most everyone. They can talk about it as long as it pertains to someone else, someone else so they don’t have to look at it. Or when that someone is in a story far away or on television. When rawness is presented to another they often turn away for they cannot fully look in the face of rawness and not cringe.
Everyone will at some point feel the rawness. Many cannot face their own rawness but face it we must if we are going to grow and become the man or woman God has destined us to be. You see, facing the rawness, to me, means gettin’ real, gettin’ nakked! It simply means getting real enough with yourself to uncover what has caused any wounds whether they be super minor or larger than the Milky Way! Each person’s issues are theirs and should not be compared to another’s. And each person needs to be able to heal at his or her ability, the method for your healing might not work for another. We are all made uniquely and we’re made in His image. God never wanted any of us to hurt. Sadly that does happen.
The good news is that you can overcome any rawness, any pain, you may be facing in your life. It takes hard work to feel the feelings but without feeling it then healing the pain may not happen. I firmly believe we all could use a mental health checkup just like we get a physical. Our mental health is so intricately connected with our physical health.
I encourage you to be brave and face any rawness in your own life. One step at a time just like eating the apple one bite at a time. You can do it. Besides, you are worth the effort! Healing hurts but oh my goodness, the thought of staying stuck in that rut is motivation to make the decision to grab hold of God and gain that sweet healing! Find friends who will help you walk this path. Doing so alone is super hard!
Remember in Matthew 19:26 (NKJV) But Jesus looked at them and said to them, “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
How do you deal with the rawness on your healing path?
We’d love to hear from you.
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Remember, healing happens!
I recently had an opportunity to visit with a friend who’d grown up not far from where I did. We hadn’t seen each other in ages nor had we visited at length as we did yesterday. I walked away from that visit both feeling validated and saddened at the same time. Validated that someone else knew the truth to my story, yet sad because no one stepped forward to rescue the little girl who was being abused.
As she and I began to talk she described what I had thought had been kept secret from the community all those long years ago. After all, grandma was often known to yell, “Now, what will the neighbors think?” I grew up believing I had to please the neighbors, (people pleasing is not good). Back then that’d put fear coursing all throughout my being, now I don’t give a flip! I refuse to give others power over me any longer. (Truthfully, I am working on this one!)
While we sat there talking she began to whisper how she remembered hearing her parents and grandparents talk in a worried way about my safety and well-being. She told me that they prayed a lot for me because “they just knew bad things were happening to me”.
She even shared how her parents somehow heard about how my mother threw my belongings out the front door into the yard when she was trying her hardest to split my beloved and me apart. And she did succeed; however, God has a wonderful way of redeeming according to His plan and will! He put us back together!
Listening to her softly spoken words, almost as if she were embarrassed to share, of various things I’d been exposed to; things that had been done to me I was astounded that others in our community knew of the horror. Why hadn’t someone done something? I’ll never know.
Growing up in an abusive and dysfunctional home can cause many soul scars. Seeking healthy healing along my life’s path has brought me to a place in my life where I now know and fully understand that scripture where it talks about the ‘peace that passes all understanding’. Philippians 4:7 I’ve learned to guard my peace very closely!
It has taken a lot of hard work but I now know the power of forgiving others. Those who set out to do me harm, who hurt my little girl’s body. Anyone who has hurt you, it is important for you to make the effort to forgive them. Oh, not for them necessarily but for you! Holding a grudge against another is like eating poison hoping the other person dies and you end up six foot under. Not smart!
Forgive, no matter what they do to you. Acts 7:59-60 NIV ‘While they were stoning him, Stephen prayed, “Lord Jesus, receive my spirit.” Then he fell on his knees and cried out, “Lord, do not hold this sin against them.” When he had said this, he fell asleep.’
We all have junk we must overcome. Or we can continue to waller in it all the days of our life not being any real to others, or our self and certainly not being active in furthering the Kingdom of God. I’m on the other side of my battles and I find when I glance back wondering how I made it, how I didn’t die. But God! Now I want to share my truth and see others gain their freedom, their healing, gain their peace of mind which passes all understanding.
You too can gain your peace of mind. I’d love to share with you. Thanks for listening. Remember, you are so very valuable and important. You are beautiful and full of life. You are special and intelligent. You are all this and more. Your Heavenly Father says so and He can’t lie.
Everyone deserves peace!
How do you gain peace for yourself?
What do you do to heal?
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Perseverance. I used to hate that word, especially when reading James 1:2-5. (NIV)
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
I mean, come on! Who really enjoys trails and tribulation?! Not me!
However, as I’ve grown in my walk I’ve begun to notice that when I push through a situation when I persevere, I gain more knowledge. That’s a good thing. We were never assured of a sweet life full of roses with no thorns. Nope, we were told that our path, if directed towards our Creator, will be narrow but the wide one would lead to destruction. We were warned that we would indeed have trials, have issues in life to deal with; however, that doesn’t mean we have to live there.
Years ago while attending a local church the pastor shared a message on ‘stinkin’ thinkin’ and it stuck with me! We’re told in Philippians 4 to guard our mind so if there’s a need to do so that must mean bad thoughts can get in our mind! Growing up as I did, in an abusive and dysfunctional home, I learned a lot of bad thoughts. Like, I wish I’d never of been born; or I’m so stupid, or I’ll never amount to anything and so on. Of course, these thoughts were spoken to me over and over by those who were supposed to have loved and protected me. They did not!
It’s taken many years and lots of on-purpose redirecting to change my thought life. I’ve had many starts and stops but I’ve also learned how to persevere! On purpose!
I had a counselor years ago help me with a visual image pertaining to redirecting my thought life. It’s like when a cow goes to the watering hole. Most usually that cow will walk the same path every day, day in and day out. Starts out a path and will eventually end up a rut…a grave with both ends kicked out. My old stinkin’ thinkin’ had done the same thing in my brain. I’d thought those same thoughts over and over that a rut had formed in my brain.
Dr. Caroline Leaf has traveled the globe as an author and public speaker examining many aspects of the neuroscience world has written many good books on having a healthy brain. You can check her out on YouTube also. She has helped me learn that I can, in fact, redirect my thought life which will, in turn, create a new path for my cows to take to their watering hole. Cool huh!?!
Those who often told me I’d never amount to anything were wrong. They were hurting in their own stuff and had not gained the healing they needed. Doesn’t make what they did right for it wasn’t. I fully believe once you become an adult it is totally your responsibility to adjust any negative or false beliefs to become a strong adult. Easy? Nope! At least it hasn’t been for me.
I now know I am a strong woman of God who has endured way more than anyone should ever have to. What I experienced as a child I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy! No child deserves to live in fear!
I challenge you today: Begin today, right now, paying close attention to what you’re thinking! You really are responsible for your own thought life. And you, with God’s help, can indeed change your thinking!
Check out Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
This scripture helped me learn to change my thinking. Took lots of time and effort on my part. I still will have a rogue thought to slither into my thinking; and honestly, I still have days where those thoughts will overwhelm me to the point of going numb. However, I am so very thankful they are less.
You, my friend, can become anything you wanta be! Don’t let others words cast doubt on your dream! Go for it! Never let anyone stand in your way of becoming the best you God has destined you to be! You are so beautiful in His eyes!
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It is ok….
It is ok to have a meltdown….
It is ok to hurt…..
It is ok to wonder…..
It is ok to have gobs of questions…..
It is ok to need to pull back and regroup….
And it is ok to yell and have a fit.
Just don’t stay there.
Self care is vitally important!
In today’s world of fast paced and instant gratification there comes a time one needs to pull away where it’s calm and quiet.
May you find that time!
I know I’ve suddenly found myself in need of nature and peace and quiet!
I am so looking forward to warmer temps. My soul longs for the woods!