Wow…so 2020 has started off with a bang! (No pun intended.) Wars and rumors of wars!
I’ve watched the news reports and read posts on social media. Many, if not most, seem to be proclaiming gloom and doom.
Where’s the positive?
Now I’m certainly not one to stick my head in the sand…for one thing I prefer balance. Yes, I’d like to know what’s goin on in the world but not to the point where all the news I follow is so fear based!
I do use the off button on my remote!
Where is it written we must constantly walk around with a fear mentality?
Fear is not from my Poppa God!
All this media hype does nothing but get folks stirred up believing whatever they hear or read instead of searching the truth out!
Don’t be like sheep being lead to the slaughter.
Study to show your self approved.
And be happy!
You and you alone control your happiness! No one else!
Turn off the news.
Play a game.
Go for a walk.
Take a nap.
Get out in nature.
Purge any unwanted or needed items.
You are the one in control of your destiny!
Determine that 2020 is going to be an over the top amazing year for you! Then take steps to do so!
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You are not alone!
Rise up oh weary one and let your light so shine!
Pray a covering of peace and protection.
So how are maintaining your peace with all the fear and negativity?
I had wondered if we’d have a white Christmas but where we live…nope! Way too warm and that’s nice too!
I have done very little for Christmas this year. It’s simply been way too hard, too stressful to do otherwise. Oh, I tried to decorate. Had big plans for doing so. Even had my wonderful husband to bring my numerous totes of decorations to the house from storage and I even pulled some things out. I do have a few snowmen sitting about the house but that’s it.
I’m not playing scrooge or anything negative. I simply do not have the emotional energy to get caught up in all the hype of the holiday. I find myself struggling…a lot…this year with the expectations of my getting into the spirit of the holiday when I just don’t have it inside.
I refuse to get in to the whole gift giving until credit cards are maxed out! That’s crazy!
Oh, don’t get me wrong! I do celebrate the birth of my Lord and Savior for without Him I know I would not be here. I’d be dead or in an insane asylum somewhere. No, I know I’m ridiculously blessed and I’m oh, so grateful for the birth of Jesus!
This year has been way more simple for me!
Not too long ago my mother passed. Six months ago if someone had told me I’d be reacting this way I’d of said they were nuts! My mother and I didn’t have a healthy relationship at all in any area! She was one of my main abusers. But God!
You see, when she’d been placed in a nursing home and Hospice took over her care, she had days where her mind was clear and we’d have time to talk and laugh and make things right. I was able to hear the sweet words from her of ‘I’m sorry’! What a joy! And I hold fast to that!
I’m grateful for learning how to forgive her and all those who hurt me! Forgiving is freedom from being a victim and stepping into being an overcomer!
I’m realizing not only am I mourning her passing; I’m also mourning what I now know I’ll never have! I’ll never have a healthy mother daughter relationship. I must allow that dream to die.
But God! He gave me a sweet gift of those few days with my mother, before she passed, of who I believe was her core being before the demons of her own abuse took over her soul. I am now able to see her through a different lens, through a different set of glasses which enables me to extend grace and mercy to her.
With my mother’s passing I’m finding myself adjusting my sails a bit differently on this sea of life. I’m evaluating and reevaluating my current relationships. I’m seeing more clearly some areas of my life that I now know I must let go of: Those familiar belief systems that were put in place when I was raised in a very dysfunctional, abusive home. Those familiar thoughts that still plague my mind; that feel like falling back into a mound of warm, cushy pillows seemingly all safe and sound. But that is a false belief!
And it’s scary to address those lies from my past, to confront their limited mortality! And it’s my choice as to whether or not I wanta address them, to send them packing and scurrying into the night. It’s my choice if I wanta live in freedom or continue to live in the small sphere of life around me when in fact, when I do choose to let those lies go, when I do choose to expose the lies to the truth, then I will gain a larger sphere. I will gain truth! And the truth will set me free!
I know it’s a process. I know it takes time, lots of hard work and reflection as well as letting go!
So this Christmas I began a new tradition by making an honorary donation in my mother’s name to Broken Pieces No More, Inc for the work they do to help raise awareness of various forms of abuse, addiction as well as providing healthy healing options.
I’m also learning more to be kind to me and not expect so much!
Healing happens! Yet healing is messy!
If there were such a thing as a perfect Christmas it would one where all four of our children and their children along with the rest of our family were together to celebrate our savior’s birth. Until then I continue to pray for healing and His love to transform us all.
I wish you a Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukah, and happy holidays.
Feel free to contact BPNM at email@example.com or PO Box 1373 Somerset, Ky 42502.
It’s still a bit early morning here. I look out my window and see a skift of snow laying on the ground. I so long for a good deep snow, at least one before the winter season is over! Since we’ve been living here on Dragonfly Farm we have yet to see and enjoy a good deep snow. I like to get out and go hiking in the snow. It’s so incredibly quiet plus I enjoy seeing footprints of various critters! Ah, well, maybe soon! We’ll see.
So here I am warm and toasty enjoying my morning coffee planning out a brand new day. This week has been stressful for some reason. Do you ever have those? Stressful weeks filled with stops and starts. I’ve also fought some really tormenting dreams which has robbed me of solid restful sleep too! Not good! Not sure why unless it’s just the devil being a punk! He does that..trying to steal, kill and destroy but he forgets he’s defeated! lol
But I am determined to have a wonderful day. Besides this is the day the Lord has made and I’m gonna have a great one! Right!?!
I have some writing to finish up, forms to create and email out. Already kickin’ it on housework! That’s the cool thing of working from home! I bounce back and forth between both. Though sometimes I get bogged down and seem to spin my wheels. When I write out my to-do list it helps greatly!
I hope your day is good! That you are at peace and feeling rested!
You are a beautifully created unique individual! No one else can do what you’re designed to do.
You are ‘nobody’s’ anything but you are God’s everything!
When others doubt your abilities, your functions, your dreams….that’s your cue to change the channel, to turn the dial, to tune them out.
You were created for great things!
God doesn’t make junk!
You are beautiful in His eyes! He is watching over you and loves you with an everlasting unconditional love! A love that will never fail! A love that you can not stop Him from loving you no matter what you do! A love, that when you do finally accept it, will cause you to go further than you ever dreamed of!