I don’t wanta surrender!

For most of my life I have hated the thought of surrender! Even hated the word!! What? Nu-huh….I don’t think so! No way would I ever surrender to anyone! Just not gonna happen! Why? Because after years of abuse from near birth to recent adulthood, I refused to surrender!In my childhood I suffered horrific abuse:… Continue reading I don’t wanta surrender!

Grief is Necessary

These are the days of passing from one life into another. Yesterday I found out that a wonderful godly woman passed! She was the last of those I considered my spiritual parent. She taught me so much about being a godly woman. She’s also a family member though I wasn’t raised knowing that. I discovered… Continue reading Grief is Necessary

Four Ways of Learning to Be

I Corinthians 15:57 But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Yesterday, here in the US, we celebrated Thanksgiving. The holidays have become very hard for me as my parents and my sweet mother-in-love have passed. Even so, I’m learning to sit with my pain of missing them… Continue reading Four Ways of Learning to Be

Forgive and Let Go

My day’s started out well. Have soup beans cooking in the crock pot. Have a meeting today, finishing up the information for it. I have some encouraging teaching playing to fill the atmosphere of our home with His goodness and mercy! This morning I happen…or did I?….to find teaching on who He says I am!… Continue reading Forgive and Let Go

Real. Raw. And nakked! I was decived!!!

This time in 2015, I made a huge life-changing decision. It was not made lightly but covered with much prayer, tears and questions. No one …I mean NO one…knew what I was dealing with behind closed doors in my marriage. I was so very scared! Terrified, in fact! I had no idea what I’d do… Continue reading Real. Raw. And nakked! I was decived!!!

I hate winter!

Warning: Enter in but this is a real and raw post with a lot of pain! I’ve been struggling the past two days and wasn’t sure why. I’ve attempted to connect with my inner self to find out what’s going on. Nope, not feeling sick.Nope, not overly emotional. So what in the world is going… Continue reading I hate winter!

Grief and the Holidays

This year for the first time in my life I have no desire whatsoever to move forward into the joyous season. I’d just rather skip right over all the silly season and wake up on December 26th, thank you very much!! Grief hurts! I’ve been visiting with a grief counselor who has helped somewhat. Although,… Continue reading Grief and the Holidays