During this time in which we find ourselves living, I firmly believe we must be willing to step outside the box, even ourselves, in order to grab hold of new and innovative thought processes for surviving day to day with a healthy mindset. For me, that’s included a few things I’ll share here.
As always, I’d love to hear your thoughts from wherever you are.
I do wanta encourage you in that you are not alone! Especially if Jesus lives in your heart!
Even if the mountains were to crumble and the hills disappear, my heart of steadfast, faithful love will never leave you, and my covenant of peace with you will never be shaken,” says Yahweh, whose love and compassion will never give up on you.
It has taken me so many years to realize God’s unfailing love for me!
I grew up in an insanely dysfunctional home where love was never spoken of nor practiced. Not sure my guardians knew how or what love really was. Well, no, of course, they didn’t; otherwise, I wouldn’t have experienced such horrific child abuse! I was taught that I was worthless and no account. That was a lie!
I am very valuable! As we all are in God’s sight!
Being married to my wonderful beloved has taught me so much about unconditional love! We are neither perfect, but his love for me is a godly love and reflects Jesus in Him. I am highly blessed and healing deeply as a result!
2. Do not fear!
There are over 365 times written in His word to ‘fear not’!
I’ve had to engage my mind on this one so much, or rather, I have to retrain my brain to not focus on fear! I grew up with fear as a close friend, so close in fact that I could often feel the hot, clammy breath of fear breathing down my neck as a little girl.
For me, I have to focus on the blessings and promises of God, rather than what the media is throwing out on the airwaves of late. If I don’t keep my guard up, I can easily be freaked out by what folks are spewing forth of late. That’s not healthy!
I know in Whom I believe and it isn’t some news outlet or social media site. I occasionally listen to several news sources, for I do not believe any one of them solely anymore. It’s kinda like the ole saying, don’t put all your eggs in one basket. Don’t get all your information from one source….unless that source is the Word of God!
Sadly, I find many I meet along the way are so afraid!
And why not??
With all the fear being spewed forth daily on social media and through news outlets, it’s no wonder we’re not all running for those mountains for cover!
I have learned that fear is a perceived threat of some kind to ourselves or our family unit. When we are afraid, we react totally out of the ‘flight or fight’ mode. Adrenaline pumps through our system, causing us to make hasty decisions instead of mediating on a safe answer.
I’ve also read where some believe the opposite of fear is safety. Maybe so. I know for me when I’m afraid, I do not feel safe at all. I’m learning not to jump into the emotion of fear so quickly!
I’ll hear folks talking bout how we need to stock up on this or that because soon there won’t be any more of that item, and fear begins to quiver within my being. There is nothing wrong at all with using common sense and being prepared. I just can’t jump over into being afraid. Then I must remind myself on Whom I believe and trust.
Maybe for me the opposite of fear is trusting in the One who made the universe!
Fear is nasty and messy for me and I do not like it in my life. I appreciate the times I need that emotion for protection but I do not want to live there anymore! Life is way too short to live in fear!
I pray you are doing well and that you are able to get a handle on fear!
Ecclesiastes 3 tells that there is a time and season for many things under Heaven. Right now this is my time of healing.
1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, 3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, 4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, 5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, 6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, 7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, 8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.
But how do I heal?
That I do not know!
What is healing?
This is what google tells me, the process of making or becoming sound or healthy again.
Wow…boy oh, do I need that!
And where do I even begin?
Was I ever healthy?
I’m honestly not sure!
I’ve had professionals tell me I should be in an insane asylum or dead because of the horrific amount of trauma I’ve experienced.
>Trafficked to men in the community until I was 11 years old to pay the ‘light bill‘ each month.
>Massive amounts of child abuse: physical, sexual, neglect, psychological.
>Given enemas’ over and over to ‘get the devil outta me’.
>Groomed to obey whatever ever was told to me.
And so much more.
I write about this and more in my latest book, House Full of Secrets: Human Trafficking and Redemption.
All of my books are available on Kindle or Amazon in paperback. A portion of all book sales goes to Broken Pieces No More Inc, a nonprofit my husband, a dear friend and I formed to raise awareness of child abuse and human trafficking.
Right now with all that’s going on I am stepping back from most areas and focusing on gaining my own deep, inner healing. If I’m not healed then I won’t be of much use to others. It is imperative that I gain my own healing as I want to be instrumental in helping others who have trod a similar path as I have. #healingispossible
We all need healing for we’ve all been hurt in some manner.
What are you hoping to heal within?
It is possible!
And you are not alone, no matter how much you or the enemy tries to convince you of..it’s a lie!
Never allow anyone to deny you this unique opportunity to gain that necessary healing either.
I pray you will be able to join me on a similar journey and grab hold of the healing you deserve.
I don’t know the answer to that but I suspect they do!
At least they do for me, here, tonight as I sit at my desk staring out into the darkness just on the other side of my window.
I find myself wondering if there’s anyone out there somewhere watching me! Lordy I surely hope not! No alarms are going off so I’m safe…for now!
My beloved is still at work though he will soon be home. Oh how I dearly miss him! And I so dislike him working this second shift but we know it’s only for a season. However, I pray I can maintain for the season no matter how long. I am very grateful for him and wonderfully blessed he is my husband!
This other season….this season of anger and despair and grief that seems as if it’s suffocating my very being….I do not like this season at all!
Anger so white hot it seems as if it would sizzle my flesh right off my bones!
Anger that causes me to want to crumple up those who have hurt me into a small little ball of nothingness and throw them so very far away!
What is anger?
It is an emotion that can produce a flight or fight feeling. It can bring on fear or depression. It can make you feel as if you’re going outta your mind.
Anger is a valid emotion.
Anger can also mask underlying emotions!
You can do some research on it.
For me, I know my anger is a mask of deeper emotions.
Emotions that have been swimming to the surface of my soul for years.
Why haven’t I felt them before now?
Well, I probably have though not to this degree!
You see as I’m now safely with my beloved, I am able to begin the process of really beginning to feel that horrific rejection and woundings from my childhood. Those things happened when my mother and grandmother and others viciously abused me.
I’m grateful for the forgiving process for I do believe I have begun that long ago and will continue.
Now, I need to focus on healing the little girl within!
I need to listen to her silent screams that are erupting from my soul!
I need to give her the attention she deserves as we work together to heal all those deep, burning wounds from long ago.
I need to acknowledge that what happened to her really happened to me.
Healing sucks and is very messy but oh, so necessary if one is hoping to live a healthy life. And I do!
So I will feel it to heal it no matter what!
I lived through the hell of it all and I will live through the recovery of me, the true me, the authentic me!!
I will grieve for the lost little me!
I will heal.
I will journal.
I will go hang out in nature.
I will let myself cry.
I will talk with my counselor.
I will heal because I am worth it!
I pray you too will find whatever healing you are needing. The effort is worth it!
My mom passed in September 2019 and my daddy died in December 2020.
My sweet mother in law, who is more of a momma to me, is in her end of life phase. Of course we never know when that final day will be..yet…we must grieve!
I have had to acknowledge I am not in a good place right now! I know it’s a part of life but still…I don’t like being here. Nevertheless, here I am and there I shall go and in the going I will gain healing and His peace!
I’ve realized over the past few weeks as we are preparing for the home going of my mother in law, I haven’t really allowed myself to grieve the loss of both my parents. Wow…the onslaught of emotions is huge!
How do you deal with grief?
My old way, which was to pretty much avoid the subject all together, hasn’t worked out too good yet!
Matter of fact, I will be seeing a grief counselor beginning next week for a season.
I encourage anyone in need to see professional help with any mental health issue.
Given the day we now live in with fear being spewed forth on all fronts, we are on overload! We hear fear based noise all day long…if we have the medium going. I chose to turn mine off!!
You do have that choice! Although many would like us to think we don’t!
Yes we do!
Yes you do!
Yes I do!
I want to make healthy choices for my life! As I’m walking through this season of grief I must make sure to destress often or I’ll be on grief overload which is not good for anyone!
Hanging out in nature helps me with destressing a lot!
Writing in my journal helps too. I dump feelings, emotions, thoughts no matter what. It helps me to get ’em all out so hopefully I’ll not pick ’em up again. Sometimes I do though then need to do the dumping all over again! Practice!
I encourage you to be active in processing your grief or even fear! Both can play havoc with our being. Make sure to take time for you because you are so worth it!
I am pleased and excited to announce that my latest book, House Full of Secrets: Human Trafficking and Redemption, is now available in paperback and kindle. Any of my books may be purchased through Amazon.
This was a very hard book to write as I shared a great deal of my own personal story. And in it I share parts of my soul with you. Parts of my soul I’d never want anyone to see; yet, I truly believe that I need to share my truth in order that others may know the freedom and hope I now experience.
I shared secrets.
My book shares secrets. Deep, dark, evil ones!
Those secrets I’d been forced to keep as a child ‘or else‘.
Secrets I am finally finding my voice to speak out!
Proverbs 31:8-9 tells us to speak out for those who do not yet have their own voice with which to speak.
I am choosing to lend my voice to any one who needs it!
I speak about all forms of child abuse: neglect….my emotional and mental needs were neglected as well as often times I went hungry although we had plenty of food.
Physical abuse where I was hit either with switches until my little legs were bleeding or beaten with a belt, of course, where no bruises would show.
Verbal abuse was a constant of hearing what a horrible person I was, that I wasn’t ever wanted and how my mother so wished I’d of been a boy or never even born, called all sorts of vile named and more!
Sexual abuse has always been a part of who I am. Or rather who I was!
My mother and grandmother trafficked me out to men in the community to ‘help pay the monthly light bill’. This went on until I was eleven. It ended when I put a shotgun to my grandmother’s forehead threatening to shoot her if anyone ever touched me again!
The sexual and physical abuse stopped but the verbal/mental abuse grew even worse!
Now I have way more peace and hope than ever before in my life. I know Whose I am and I also know I’m okay!
I have gained a tremendous amount of healing for which I’m eternally thankful.
Life is so good!!
I have risen up out of the ashes more incredible than ever before.
I long to see others who are walking wounded gain their own personal healing and freedom.
This is a new and exciting time in my life. One where I am stepping out of my comfort zone doing things I’ve often dreamed about. Like speaking to anyone who’ll give a listen. Traveling and sharing my story so others can step into his or her own freedom!
This is a brand new path. I hope I’ll see you along the way.
I am available for speaking opportunities.
I have one local at a Celebrate Recovery spot at Faith. Hope. Love. Church of God in Somerset. Then I will be speaking in Winchester, Ohio at Daystar Christian Center on August 15th. And on October 9 and 10th I’ll be speaking at Lake Road Baptist Church in Morrow, Ohio.
I am available for conferences, workshops, clubs, schools, churches, organizations, etc. Wherever there is a need to help others share their secrets! I will be your voice!
What secrets have you been holding?
I’d love to hear from you.
You can let me know here or email me at email@example.com.
No one deserves to carry a burden of guilt and shame from being forced to keeping secrets!
There is freedom!!
I’m happier and more content now than I’ve ever been in my life!
It’s a new day to a new week. Actually it’s the last week of this month.
So how are you doing now that we’ve stepped into 2021?
How’s your stress level?
Are you finding time to unwind and destress?
You don’t need to carry stress with you.
What’s some of your favorite ways to do so?
I know I’m still in the grieving process of my dad’s death! I do miss him so!
Over the weekend, my beloved was working on a project so I took some valuable ‘me’ time. I grabbed a book and crawled back in bed and read till I fell asleep. What a sweet treat as I rarely do that.
The room was dim with only the light from my bedside table to chase away the darkness. It was quiet with an occasional barking dog. We have one dog who barks at falling leaves or snow. She’s so silly but I do love her!
I am taking much needed time during this grieving season to visit some of those boxes and totes I have stored in the basement of my mind. Not that I really want to mind you. But rather out of sheer necessity! You see, I’ve gathered some unhealthy beliefs and thoughts and patterns along my 60 year path that I’m beginning to realize needs to go!
I’d thought to have a yard sale to get rid of those unwanted items but if I don’t need them nor want them why in the world would I try to pawn em off on someone else!!
So, no! It’s time to have a great big ole bon-fire!
It’s time to burn out the lies that the enemy has fed me all the days of my life! It’s time for newness to spring forth! It’s time for fresh energy to be released! It’s time!
I’m choosing on purpose to change my stinkin’ thinkin’ to that of healthy thoughts. I’m learning how to love me wildly!!
You can too!
I encourage you to make time to search around in those hidden places of your mind. Sort through those stored boxes and such that have collected dust and cobwebs all these years. Ask Poppa God to help you know which to keep and which to burn up!
He so longs to help you with that decision. All you need do is whisper His name and ask! He’s right there ready to help you in whatever situation you may find yourself in!
I pray blessings over you this day my friend!
Oh, we’re soon going to be doing a teaching series. I’ll post nuggets and updates here then you can jump over to our ministry YouTube channel at Broken Pieces No More Inc to learn more.
I’m also going to be doing a book giveaway soon. So stay tuned for those details.
We’d love to hear from you! You can drop a line here or email me at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Today where I live we’re supposed to receive snow. I enjoy a good snow. However, today it is grey and overcast. Sad looking!
I am making myself rest making no major decisions. My whole being is tired and drained.
I find myself traveling from one point to the other in our home. From organizing in my office to decluttering the kitchen and living room to putting laundry away.
I am so very thankful my beloved husband is home on vacation. It is so safe feeling having him here.
My grief is still fresh and real and palpating throughout my being.
I miss my daddy!
This next Tuesday we’ll lay him in his final resting place. I’d so hoped to have the Honor Guard attending but no, these lockdowns won’t allow that!
I’ve been reading a book pertaining to grieving for ones parent. I’m not sure if I’m on track or not. I do have several close friends I check in with who keep me on track.
Time. Time is supposed to heal all wounds. I chose to repeatedly take my pain to Jesus. He understands very well!
I greatly miss our son and his family. They live 700 miles away so we wont spend Christmas together this year! Hurts my heart!
This Christmas I chose to be kind to me. My beloved and I are talking and watching movies. Right now we’re watching The Lord of the Rings movies. We’re making plans and goals for 2021 with our publishing company as well as our ministry. Plans are good.
I chose on purpose to focus on the positive.
3 Points of Positives
1. God is my Poppa; Jesus is my Lord and Holy Spirit is my Comforter
2. This is only a season. It did not come to stay. I will adjust my sails and move forward!
3. Self care is vital. Much like when an oxygen mask falls in a descending airplane, we individually must practice self care to be able to care for others.
I pray your Christmas Eve is a Happy and contended one.
Do you understand what it means when wheat is sifted? Do you know the process of separating the wheat from the chaff? Do you know what the chaff is?
According to an online search:
The purpose of sifting wheat is not to destroy it but to remove the chaff – the dust, husks, and impurities. While the sifting process is uncomfortable and even painful, but it is effective. When we are sifted as wheat there is an assurance that we will emerge free from impurities.
Would you know if you had been ‘God husk-ed’?
I didn’t until yesterday morning when I was reading my Bible in the book of Luke about Peter which then lead to a reading in Job. The house was quiet. It was early. My beloved was still sleeping. I could hear the soft hum of the furnace filling our home with warm heat. I was sitting there in my reading spot with a soft, light blue blanket thrown over my legs, coffee to my left on the side table with the lamp on. There was a soft glow cast over the room. Peaceful.
How would you feel to know that someone in authority over you has given your enemy full permission to attack you? The only thing that was off limits was the taking of your life!
This enemy could make you sick; cause you to lose relationships; tell you where you can go and what you can do; have your job taken away; harm your children; stunt your success and so much more! The only thing he couldn’t do would be is to take your life.
There was an older man who experienced something similar to this. He loved God passionately. He was a good man. He did his best to live an upstanding life and he offered up payment for his children daily just in case they’d messed up. He woke up one morning and soon discovered every one of his children and their families had been destroyed along with all their possessions. Soon thereafter, he himself was attacked causing him to lose his material possessions then he ended up with a dreaded disease. His body was sick with some horrible virus!
Many, including his wife, told he should just give up and die!
But you know what??
Even though it took months he did not give up. He remained steadfast. He kept holding on. When he neared the time of his ‘husking’ he began to notice good things, blessings, coming his way! His life was restored. He even had more children, and his possessions were restored.
But if he had not allowed himself to be ‘husk-ed’ he might not have ever experienced true enlightenment in the end!
But wait….there’s more….
There’s another guy who was outspoken and bold. Some might have thought he had a cocky attitude. He often stated his opinion even when not asked for it. He’d question the motive of others and even attack those who went against what he felt was correct. He was told at one point he’d deny his relationship with a certain leader, but this guy vehemently denied even that.
As that particular day unfolded, he at first was defending his leader whom he loved. Later on, that evening after this leader was led away by the authorities of that day, this guy made sure to distance himself from the truth. When questioned by three different individuals, this guy outright lied and denied knowing this leader at all!
But….relief is on the way!
Truth always prevails!
Justice is always served!
Forgiveness is always available!
**Now the above statements are what I believe to be ‘truths’ yet, we all have a free will as to whether or not we choose to believe them!**
**It’s not up to us to rationalize or analyze God’s ways for our life. It is our responsibility to hear and obey! Afterall, He is a loving Heavenly Father! We as parents expect our children to be respectful and do what we tell them (provided we are healthy parents). And our questions do not freak Him out one little bit! He welcomes our questioning just as a good earthly father would do for his children in order for them to grow in wisdom. We are to daily seek Him and chose to become more like Him.**
These days in which we live are fear-filled for so very many! I hear, read and see this fear on many around me and it grieves me greatly! Yet, in my humble opinion, these are the most exciting times in history! Those of us alive now, may very well see the return of Jesus Christ. However, we are not to sit down on our blessed assurance and quit! Oh, a thousand times NO! Why? Because we still have much work to do!
Jesus tells us in His word that the fields are ripe with harvest. I firmly believe we are on the precipice of a great awakening like this world has never seen! I pray for a shaking of the very foundation, of our core being, that we will each individually be awakened to His mighty truth and glory! We are not to shrink back in fear but rather, encourage each other to stand firm. And having done all to stand, stand! It’s in the Word!
**Truth moment: There are those times I find the spirit of fear, panic, dread, anxiety and others threatening to overtake me. There are also those days when I’m gripped with it; however, I am choosing on purpose to believe more and more in the saving knowledge of the Lord Jesus Christ who lives in me! I must daily tell myself that nope, I chose on purpose to believe on Him! Fear is not of God for perfect love (God Himself) casts out fear! It’s in the Word!**
I also believe when one of us is down then it’s the other’s responsibility to come along side and pick that fallen brother or sister up! Jesus never sent out any lone rangers! He always sent folks out 2 x 2! Now more than ever, we need to stay connected with our brothers and sisters! Pray one for another! Help each other! Love and support each other however the Holy Spirit leads! It’s in the Word!
Both of these guys I’ve shared about were ‘God husk-ed’!
The first guy I mentioned was Job. There’s a whole book about him in the Bible.
6 Now there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the Lord, and Satan also came among them.
7 And the Lord said to Satan, “From where do you come?” So Satan answered the Lord and said, “From going to and fro on the earth, and from walking back and forth on it.”
8 Then the Lord said to Satan, “Have you considered My servant Job, that there is none like him on the earth, a blameless and upright man, one who fears God and shuns evil?”
9 So Satan answered the Lord and said, “Does Job fear God for nothing?
10 Have You not made a hedge around him, around his household, and around all that he has on every side? You have blessed the work of his hands, and his possessions have increased in the land.
11 But now, stretch out Your hand and touch all that he has, and he will surely curseYou to Your face!”
12 And the Lord said to Satan, “Behold, all that he has is in your power; only do not lay a hand on his person.” So Satan went out from the presence of the Lord.
I encourage you to read the end of Job. It’s wonderfully uplifting. Shoot, read the end of the Bible and you’ll discover those who believe on Jesus, why, we win!!
The other guy I spoke of is Peter. He was one of Jesus closest followers.
One thing that greatly wrecked me about this passage is where it reads, “Peter, I have prayed for you!”
Imagine that my friend! Insert your name in the blank. “____________, I have prayed for you!” Said Jesus!! Wow….
31 “Peter, my dear friend, listen to what I’m about to tell you. Satan has demanded to come and sift you like wheat and test your faith.
32 But I have prayed for you, Peter, that you would stay faithful to me no matter what comes. Remember this: after you have turned back to me and have been restored, make it your life mission to strengthen the faith of your brothers.”
To sum this all up…..for me, one early morning I learned what it means when one is ‘God husk-ed’!
I can’t help but wonder how many of us are being ‘God husk-ed’ during this season of a strange pandemic?
Have you had an experience where you’d finally had to just throw up your hands and say, “God, it’s Yours! I just can’t do this anymore!”
Without allowing Poppa God to remove the husk from off your heart you will never step into the fullness He has just for you. Don’t be afraid! If you don’t have anyone else to agree with you, I’m here! I’d love to join you on your personal journey! Together with God, all things are possible!
I am choosing to allow God access to remove those hard things, those hard areas, from my heart so it’s soft and pliable for His love to flow forth. I am choosing to look back on my life with joy instead of sorrow for all the abuse and pain I’ve experienced. I’m choosing on viewing my past through the side mirror, which is way smaller than the windshield in front of me. I am choosing on purpose to be thankful to God for protecting me through all these years of suffering and now rejoice for He has been with me every single day! I have hope in Him and Him alone!
I pray you relent, submit, let go, and allow God to remove that husk from around your heart you’ve been holding onto for protection that only He can provide! You are not alone!
I’d love to hear your thoughts. Also have you been ‘God husk-ed’? I’d love to hear about it! Shoot me an email: email@example.com
Thanksgiving is fast approaching here in the USA. In many areas of our country and worldwide, restrictions are being placed on us for social distancing in preventing the virus spread. In some state’s citizens are being told how many to have within their home. This is NOT a post about the virus nor politics, but I encourage you to NOT walk in fear! I’m sure we all have our own opinion on the purpose behind this action, yet I do not believe sharing that at this time is purposeful.
No, I wanta talk with you about purging and being thankful.
Similar words to purging include removal, abolition, eradication, taking away, eliminating, removing, dismissing, ridding, etc. There comes a time in everyone’s life where purging is a necessity. Whether it be material possessions or relationships, a better job or location to live. We all will face those times.
When I think of purging, I envision going through my stuff to determine what I need to keep, how best to store what I’m keeping and what I need to get rid of, whether or not that means trash or donating.
Why do you think it’s important to purge?
I can’t stand visual clutter
I’ve been in working environments where there is much stuff sitting about. Clutter. Even in my own office, if I’m not careful, I’ll soon have stacks of papers here and junk piled over there and books over there and folders on the desk. Soon, I realize my outer space is reflecting my inner self and vice versa. If I want peace within and without, I must stay vigilant in maintaining my peace! I have to guard that carefully!
Proverbs 4:23 ‘So above all, guard the affections of your heart, for they affect all that you are. Pay attention to the welfare of your innermost being, for from there flows the wellspring of life.’ (All scriptures used from The Passion Translation)
Thank goodness I’m learning that when I keep both the inner and outer free of unwanted clutter, I walk in much more peace. However, I’ve not fully realized or learned that yet, so I have to repeat the process. Nevertheless, I am making progress!
Right now, the world doesn’t feel very peaceful. Then again, since I’m a Jesus follower, I’m not of this world; I’m just a passin’ through. My treasures are laid up somewhere beyond the blue. The angels beckon me to Heaven’s open door, and I can’t feel at home in this world anymore! You can sing the same song if you’re a Jesus follower!
What a wonderful feeling to have Poppa God’s sweet peace that passes all understanding. The world didn’t give it, and the world can’t take it away!
In John 16:33, we read, ‘And everything I’ve taught you is so that the peace which is in Me will be in you and will give you great confidence as you rest in Me. For in this unbelieving world, you will experience trouble and sorrows, but you must be courageous, for I have conquered the world!’
How cool is that!!!
We do not have to live in fear, but we can rest assured in God’s sweet peace that He is still on the throne!
We can also read in Philippians 4:7, ‘Then God’s wonderful peace that transcends human understanding will make the answers known to you through Jesus Christ.’
Peace, His lasting, never-ending peace, is way better than living in fear!
2. Sometimes I need that release
For whatever reason, I can become a hoarder quickly. I think it may have to do with the fact I grew up very poor although I didn’t realize that. I don’t know that kids learn such things unless they are told repeatedly; they are poor. I had a very abusive childhood, but God kept me safe and allowed me to become the woman I am today.
I still have a mindset of, ‘oh, we may need that,’ so I end up saving all this or that I can get. All piled here and there.
I wonder if my purging is my way of exercising my will power instead of someone else doing so for me. If I purge when I get the urge to do so, it takes away that fear factor. I decide to let go and release, instead of being fearful I’ll be forced to do so.
John 14: 1 tells us, ‘Don’t worry or surrender to your fear. For you’ve believed in God, now trust and believe in Me (Jesus) also.’
So, I wonder if my deep-seated need for hoarding is rooted in fear, fear of never having enough. Hummmm…good question!
I’m learning to go through my things several times throughout the year. When I do, I’ve learned to ask myself if I need it, if it fits, if I’ll use it again, and I also allow myself to feel any emotional connection. Sometimes those areas need to be addressed as well. If there are negative emotions or energy, if it brings up bad memories, I may need to get rid of that item. Also, if I come across that same item a year later and haven’t used it, provided it’s not seasonal, then I probably need to get rid of it.
I’ve learned when I permit myself to feel the truth, then letting go isn’t all that bad! And honestly, it’s hard to receive something new and fresh if my hands are tightly clenched around something outdated and old and rotting!
For me, it’s a matter of changing directions, changing my pattern.
We all have patterns we follow that were programmed in our brain during our early childhood days. I firmly believe we all need to examine those patterns to discover those which might no longer be beneficial. Then we change them to where they become healthier. That’s growth!
I found it interesting, and even surprised me that the Bible talks about patterns. Here’s an example in Hebrews 8:5. ‘The priests on earth serve in a temple that is but a copy modeled after the heavenly sanctuary; a shadow of the reality. For when Moses began to construct the tabernacle, God warned him and said, “You must precisely follow the pattern I revealed to you on Mt. Sinai.”
3. Purging lightens the load
In Matthew 11:28 we read, ‘Are you weary, carrying a heavy burden? Then come to Me. I will refresh your life, for I am your oasis.’
Wow…doesn’t that sound delightful??
Now I don’t know about you, but for some reason, I tend to carry all my burdens, yours and a few others, until I end up bent over from the weight of it all. Honestly, that’s not what God intended. His burden is light if we allow Him to carry the heavy end. However, many times for various reasons, we seem to believe (a lie of the devil) that if we push hard, if we beat our body, if we mentally abuse ourselves, if we hurt and struggle, then it’ll be worth it all in the end. That’s a lie, for it’s not written anywhere in His word we’re to do so. Quite the opposite, actually.
Man, I gotta get this truth, His truth, way down deep on the inside of my being!!
Psalms 55:22 tells us, ‘So here’s what I’ve learned through it all: Leave all your cares and anxieties at the feel of the Lord, and measureless grace will strengthen you.’
Wow how very cool is that??
I wanta learn to do better. No, not in actions or works but in my efforts to let it go and let God! In this day in which we live, we have many things, people, issues all trying to grab our attention.
How do we stop this week and examine what we have that we can truly be thankful for?
How bout we stop long enough to look around us, I mean really look around us, and realize that wow…we do have __________ and ____________ oh, yeah, and ______________ that we can be thankful for!
I’m thankful for:
My ongoing growing relationship with Jesus Christ
My amazing beloved Marine husband who is my soul mate
My home in the country
My son and bonus children and grandchildren
May we never become too busy or to burden down with stuff that we forget to be thankful.
Hope your Friday morning has started off well. Here it’s still early. The sun hasn’t yet popped up over the Eastern hill out from my window. I do so enjoy being able to look outside as I write. Makes for lots of inspiration.
Have you ever had a morning after?
A well known reference would be like a morning after a big drunk the night before. Or a morning after a huge event you’ve been planning for months and months.
That’s how I feel this morning!
No! I don’t have a hang over! Praise God I’ve been clean and sober since December 1989! Wow…31 years! How stinkin’ cool is that! To God be the glory cuz in my own efforts I’d of failed long ago!
This week the governor of our state has issued more mandates. It really doesn’t matter if I agree or not. What does matter is the effects of his statements on the people of this great state!
We human were not created to be secluded, isolated! We were created to fellowship one with another.
In Acts 2:44 ‘All the believers were in fellowship as one body, and they shared with one another whatever they had.’
It’s hard to share with anyone when we’re isolated and shut away from others.
But that’s not my main concern this morning. That’s not why I feel so heavy hearted!
No. What I’m sensing this morning is another wave of heaviness!
Being what’s called a ‘seer/feeler’ I often sense things, feel things, more easily than some might. It makes life challenging at times. Like this morning, when I wake up and have this heavy feeling.
So many are walking around afraid with this new virus that is now spreading around our world. However, the Bible tells us plainly all through out it’s precious pages to ‘fear not’! Do we take that as sound advice? Or do we cower back in fear lashing out at anyone and everyone who does not do what we believe they should be doing, just as we’re doing?
This morning I feel a heaviness in the spiritual atmosphere. So many are afraid!
I myself struggle with fear at times but I know it’s a lie of the devil. It’s one of his top tools in tearing folks down. Fear also brings along with it many other little demons that try their hardest to infect people, much like a virus.
Fear breeds insecurity, chaos, anger, a demanding attitude, gossip, emotional reactions, a do it my way cuz I’m right attitude and much more.
That’s not what God has called us to do. We’re commanded to love one another! In John 13:34-35. Is that easy? Well, for me nope! But I do choose on purpose to follow hard after my Poppa God. I know what it feels like to believe I’m not loveable and also to live in constant fear! That’s horrible.
I wanta share His love, goodness and mercy! I want to help ease this spirit of fear!
What can we do to ease that fear even a little bit?
Offer an encouraging word
Make a personal connection
We do not have to stoop low and carry this heavy burden. God’s word tells us His yoke is easy, His burden light in Matthew 11:28-30!
Isn’t it great knowing we’re not alone and that someone is always ready and able to help us carry such a heavy weight!
My friend, I am praying for you this day. That you will find His peace which passes all understanding…that’s in the Word too!
I’d love to hear from you. Shoot me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org