Today is Fathers Day and many are celebrating with great memories of kind and loving fathers.
And that is awesome!
However, not all of us have those sweet memories to fall back on nor a healthy relationship with our father.
Sadly there are those of us who have memories of a mean, uncaring father. Experiences of an abusive father who believed it was his job to teach his child about sex. Memories of ugly words being flung at our tender young soul that still haunt and defile us….from our father.
I applaud all those who have sweet memories of their father. Personally I have no clue what a healthy father-daughter relationship would even look like!
I’m so very thankful I’ve finally reached a point of realizing how very much God longs to be my father and even my mother! He’s a good, good father!
I’m so grateful God has been so patient with me as I’m learning more and more to trust Him! He’s a kind and loving Father!
Today I also pray for those fathers who’s adult children have made the choice to not be in their fathers lives. I know how deeply it hurts fathers!
I pray for my father and continue to lift him up to the Father. I pray my father seeks forgiveness before it’s too late!
I have forgiven my dad. It certainly wasn’t easy but very necessary! And honestly there are still those days my emotions rise up causing me to wanta squish him like a wad of paper.
But I let go and trust God for His healing!
This year instead of focusing on what I never had and focusing on the devastating loss, I am choosing to focus on the positive.
There are many men in my life who demonstrate what it is like to be a healthy father including my own husband! I am choosing to see the positive.
I’m also continuing to explore this new relationship with my Abba God as my father! He will never leave me nor forsake me! And He loves me greatly cuz I’m His favorite! lol